And oft, my jealousy shapes faults that are not. ~William Shakespeare

This quote exactly sums up why I want to rid this stupid jealous malaise in me. I'm really quite weak at articulating my own thoughts and feelings, so I'm thankful for all the help I can get from google and these writers.

Jealousy.
I begin to see flaws in myself.
The self-doubt feeds.
I give up things I enjoy because I don't think I'm good enough.

On the other hand,
I regard the 'somebody' (who probably doesn't even know I'm jealous or envious in the first place) to have the ill-est intentions directed at myself, and have the lowest character ever.

In any case, these feelings are just unhealthy. I want to get out of it.