first cny ever to see so many close to me shed tears. everyone's baggages seem to have been amplified from the stressors of preparing for the festivities, further compounded by having to meet curious relatives whom you only meet once a year to summarize what they missed; whether it is a missing partner, an unfulfilled year that just passed by, or the uncertainty of the future. still, everyone who dares to step out of their houses into the homes of the vultures still managed to put up a smiling front. interesting.
sure there is nothing to hide, but i found it tiresome having to explain complicated matters over and over again. so instead of doing the talking, i become either reticent or unusually interested in their lives. move the topics to common items like recipes and cooking (for mothers and aunties), travelling (to dads and uncles), schools and social-life (to peers and cousins) and then to the popular topics of technology accessories like apple iphone/macbooks vs every other brand.
good enough. sadly, nobody else seemed to share my love for 9gag.
but the usual bits of cny were still fun. like reunion dinner with my family and close relatives, paying visits and sitting awkwardly in sparkling residences, tasting and comparing every single pastry at every house, collecting delightful red packets, fresh new clothes, and lou-heiii.
oh how i love to lou-hei. unadulterated shredded vegetables stirred in plum sauce, peanut, sesame, raw salmon, crispy cracker pockets, and prosperity messages to hail a good chinese year ahead.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
once again, i say i will begin
hello hello,
funny how quickly time flies, and once again it is a new year. 2012, the beginning of the end. well, as bleak as the year is said to be (with the Mayans predicting that the world is coming to an end and all), i have decided to make it a point to blog more often. so many precious moments, I have failed to capture in the last half a year. i felt like a top, spinning happily and seeing the colours go by. but what became of me when i began losing speed was that i began to spin very unstably. and i did not realise that change. much to the discomfort of many of my closer friends back in singapore who were both worried and annoyed with me.
that's okay. i am now back in singapore, gathered myself a little, and I hope I am a little more matured than when I first ventured down-south.
okay, so it is already very well into the first month of 2012, but it's never too late to come up with guidelines to navigate through the year. furthermore, school only begins on the 27th of feb. and really, guidelines only prove themselves worthy during chaotic times (yes i actually find school life chaotic).
don't shoot me, but my guidelines for the new year are extremely unoriginal. but here they are anyway:
1) immerse myself in the moment
- really means quit drifting away when people are talking and focus on the person's conversation. or at the very least, make it less obvious when im not listening :\
- quit being judgmental and so afraid of the unfamiliar. get to know others, and discover new things.
2) treasure the ones i love
- my-out-of-sight, out-of-mind attitude is atrocious. i love my family and friends but sometimes (all the time?) i have a tendency to forget.
- not make them so worried by taking care of myself: basically smoke less and eat healthily.
3) keep my eyes on the prize
- psychology. i will commit myself to living and breathing psychology this year.
4) schedule, for more time.
- perhaps, when i am more mindful in scheduling my life, i would enjoy everything i commit myself to. i would be more patient, and less uptight.
5) Update this blog
- then I can keep track of my progress.
okay toodles.
funny how quickly time flies, and once again it is a new year. 2012, the beginning of the end. well, as bleak as the year is said to be (with the Mayans predicting that the world is coming to an end and all), i have decided to make it a point to blog more often. so many precious moments, I have failed to capture in the last half a year. i felt like a top, spinning happily and seeing the colours go by. but what became of me when i began losing speed was that i began to spin very unstably. and i did not realise that change. much to the discomfort of many of my closer friends back in singapore who were both worried and annoyed with me.
that's okay. i am now back in singapore, gathered myself a little, and I hope I am a little more matured than when I first ventured down-south.
okay, so it is already very well into the first month of 2012, but it's never too late to come up with guidelines to navigate through the year. furthermore, school only begins on the 27th of feb. and really, guidelines only prove themselves worthy during chaotic times (yes i actually find school life chaotic).
don't shoot me, but my guidelines for the new year are extremely unoriginal. but here they are anyway:
1) immerse myself in the moment
- really means quit drifting away when people are talking and focus on the person's conversation. or at the very least, make it less obvious when im not listening :\
- quit being judgmental and so afraid of the unfamiliar. get to know others, and discover new things.
2) treasure the ones i love
- my-out-of-sight, out-of-mind attitude is atrocious. i love my family and friends but sometimes (all the time?) i have a tendency to forget.
- not make them so worried by taking care of myself: basically smoke less and eat healthily.
3) keep my eyes on the prize
- psychology. i will commit myself to living and breathing psychology this year.
4) schedule, for more time.
- perhaps, when i am more mindful in scheduling my life, i would enjoy everything i commit myself to. i would be more patient, and less uptight.
5) Update this blog
- then I can keep track of my progress.
okay toodles.
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